New year, new posting, but my heart feel so insecure and like something is not right. People around me already geared up to make full use of the posting but I am still idling here, thinking as well as planning what is the right thing to do and the right time to do it. I wanted to be like them (not thinking and worrying too much) but I wanted to be happy too. Remembering one of the lecturer (psychiatrist) asking us this morning do we think we have any psychiatric symptoms. I think I do...Thinking too much + worrying too much = depression

Probably, I need some time to generate the energy, strength and courage in facing the challenge that is waiting for me in the final year of my 5 years course which is the toughest of all. But I wish I can use a more appropriate mood and heart to face it so that what I am doing now will increase my love and passion to the job that will be doing for the rest of my life...
I will do it my way and follow the flow...
I hope that I can make a better performance this year with my log book...
Stary!!!! Fear no more!!!! Time is not waiting for you!!! CHARGE!!!!