:-(...

Feeling very sad and low mood. I don't know whether is my problem to ignore others and not talking to them or it just happened that someday someone who is familiar with you will become stranger that you never know before. The condition became worse day by day and my mood fluatuates with it daily. This made me so hard to study and concentrate. Not only her, others she is getting close to, are also isolating me. Hey, actually What is my problem!!! I didn't do anything. I only wanted to be myself and talked to the people I liked to but she just made me more stressed up and made me feel like these will what I get for ignoring them for sometime which is when I don't want to talk... If it is like this, then I think I will just keep quite and do my own stuff and continue to be myself. I wanted to talk to someone about this but don't know who and if wanted to talk we my mom, it is very hard to talk in a hostel with so many people...I really hope everything will be just fine and I can get hold of my feelings and emotion and catch up with my study. Now I'm entering Neurology system... A lot of new terms needed to remember.

Good news is that, my friend and I will be going to climb the Mount Kinabalu in May. So hope can book the hotel because it is always full most of the time and I need to start training now...

Happenings...

A lot of things happened since I came back from my CNY holidays... I was so busy. I reached my hostel late but luckily not too late because Siaw Sii's (my buddy) bro came to fetch us in the airport. After keeping the food, I went to bed because I got class the next morning. I went for classes and in the afternoon, I was busy makeup and dress up for the MPIS. At first I was happy with my look but after looking at my friends, I felt inferior. But I was still happy I chose to go as I was reluctant at first because the place was very nice, the food was nice and I got lucky draw. The lucky draw was food, not need to worry about my junk food for a month.:-) The following day I was busy finding the doctor to become my group's elective advisor. In the morning we failed to find any doctors because they were not in but we finally found Dr Veera in the afternoon. I agreed to think about it. That day I was so busy till my hands were shaking of hunger in the late evening as I was busy with classes and Medsoc stuff. What a day!!! On Saturday, Sunday and today, I felt a bit weird with my roommates. I don't know why I am scare of her actually don't want her to know what am I doing and also don't want to know what she is doing as these will make me stress.... Feel very awkward... Hope the feeling will end soon...