Paediatrics posting...

As I am approaching the end of my Paediatrics posting and recalled back the 4 months that I am in this posting, I think really enjoyed this posting.  All the workload is high and stressful but I really enjoyed the posting.  The reasons are:
1. Good and approachable consultants, specialists, medical officers and colleagues
2. I received respect for the decision I made in the management of the patient
3. I also received compliments in the work I do...
4. I think I learned the most among all the postings that I went through (Probably in children and infants need to be more careful in the diagnosis and management thus I asked more and learned more...)

I also saw and attended various cases that I never aspect to see in children.  I am very happy I was given this chance of exposure.  I will really appreciate it...

I will be going to Emergency & Trauma Department soon...I hope I will enjoy the posting too...

It had been quite a long time I did not update my post as too busy with work till whenever I came back from work, sleeping will be my first thing followed by eating therefore blogging will be neglected then slowly, forgotten...
Today while I am surfing the net, suddenly blogging just pop up in my mind so I think I will write something and hope this time will sustain...

Updates:
Currently I am in my second year of Housemanship (still in Hospital Sibu) and had completed rotation in Internal Medicine, Surgery, Obs & Gynae departments and now in Orthopaedic (2nd month).  Quite a nice but heavy work posting as I am feeling I am doing gym workout everyday as I need to carry legs (as a size of logs) while doing slabs and POPs, Otherwise, this posting is the least stressful posting up till now as not much of emergency as what my Medical Officers (MO) always tell me, patient will not die due to fractures...  Plus, the MOs here are all very nice to me and they even consider my suggestion in managing patients :-)   They even tried to persuade me to join Orthopaedic dept after I completed my Housemanship... still considering...

Nowadays there are more and more new eating outlets in Sibu and I have not tried out... This week, my family and I went to a new restaurant - New HongKong (opposite Rejang Bookstore) mainly eating dim sum for breakfast but we went there for lunch.  From the menu, there is a variety of dim sum which you can usually find in a dim sum restaurant but not sure it's taste.  For lunch, my mom ordered a chicken curry rice ( not bad as the curry not that spicy but the spices really tastes nice) while my dad ordered Hakka Yong Tau Foo + rice ( the soup taste nice) and as for me, I ordered Beef noodle (the best - the soup taste so nice and not oily plus the beef is so soft and got intestine also...)  The price is also average... Next time will come and try the dim sum and bring my bro and sis to try...

Yesterday my dad bought cakes from Noodle House (at Lai Chee Road).  It is Mille Crepe cakes.  Never thought Sibu also got this type of cakes. The first time I taste Mille Crepe is in Malacca.  It taste so nice.  My dad bought Raisin Mille Crepe, Matcha Mille Crepe and Tiramisu Mille Crepe.  They all taste so nice and delicious but got a bit disappointed with Mille Crepe as I had too high expectation as the Malacca one is so nice... but overall taste good and will try again next time...

Sorry for no pics... next time I will make an effort to put up the photos...

Today is another ordinary Sunday.  Now my daily routine includes making simple breakfast, do the laundry, making the lunch, watching dramas followed by making the dinner.  These repeat everyday.  It is quite nice as I am learning as well as brushing up my skills in doing house chores. 

Since I have nothing to do now, I thought of writing a comment on the new Japanese drama that I had watched last night.  The title is 'Papa wa idol' (translated: My father is an idol - literally).  It is the latest drama by Nishikido Ryo from Kanjani 8.  He is one of my favourite Japanese idol from Johnny's Entertainment (JE).  In this drama, he acts as himself, an idol who had found his true love and thinking of getting married which is not allowed for an idol.  The story revolves around the life of an idol, how he tries his best in solving all the problems in his career, love and family.

Last night I watched the first episode.  It is very funny.  There are a few cameos appearances from the JE namely Satoshi Ohno and Sakurai Sho.  It feels afreshed to watch the idols acting themselves.  The drama is still airing in Japan.  I am looking forward to this drama with English subbing, of course.

 I had watched most of Nishikido Ryo dramas and I think his acting has improved in this drama.  He had grown from the cool, depressed guy who always watched you from behind (Drama: 1 litres of tears) till become an adult who gives you a sense of security (Drama: Zenkai Girl).  At times, I also enjoyed watching him acting funny like in JOKER Yurusarezaru Sosakan.  I don't know how to express it but in this drama, I felt that he had become more professional and his expression had attracted me more than his previous drama.  Way to go!!!

Hope the subbing can be done faster then I can watch it faster ^^

I never thought I could loss my temper so easily and can be easily seen through from my facial expression as well as my action.  These made everyone around me which are my parents so unhappy. 

It is two days before the Mother's Day, so we were thinking of going out to order a Mother's Day cake from the famous 'Secret Recipe' shop.  We ordered a high-fiber cake, just want to try out new flavor.  Later, we went to do some shopping at one of the hypermarket in town.  I was the driver with the purpose of familiarizing myself with the traffic in Sibu town but there were two other drivers in the car, my parents.  We all had different views and ideas about driving thus I got heated from all the various instructions as well as the traffic on the road.  So, I ended up losing my temper by showing a bad-mood facial expression, kept silent (my usual attitude) and reckless driving.  All these also pissed off my mom.  An enjoyable family trip ended up with an unhappy drive back home.

At first, I thought I could get over these very fast with my bad mood but my mom spoke up concerning my attitude and bad temper.  She told me that I had changed for the past 2-3 years in the aspect of temper and attitude.  I had became easily irritated person and got angry over trivial matters.  I had also noticed that for the past years but I think all these come from all the stress and unhappiness that I had received from my med school years.  I was a calm, polite and patient person previously.  I also wished to go back to my old self but I don't know how.  Mom advised me to be more positive thinking and don't press myself so hard but I don't know what will happen to me if I loosen myself up (or I never felt stress before).

I should be grateful and thankful all the things and achievements that I have now.  In comparison, I don't have any serious problems that I need to face and solve.  I hope that I can be a better person and find another way to release my temper.

Now, my mom is in a bad mood too from all my action.  I hope everything will be over as soon as possible as I don't want this to last till Mother's Day.

why 'study' can be a sad thing? It makes my eyes easily well-up with tears and tears come rolling down my cheeks... 'Study' is not a difficult thing and I enjoy 'studying' but it will make me sad sometime... I should strive harder to prevent it from making me sad again...

Lonely and neglected are my feelings now.... WHY???
Probably it is due to my personality, character and attitude. I am too cool to the ones around me and too serious about things thus was not able to understand or continue others' sense of humour/jokes. I give others a feeling of coolness in me and make others feel like I am a person that I am difficult to get along with. But, inside me, part of it is like that because I have difficulty in asking people for help or trouble other people. On the other hand, I am just like any other youngster who also longs for friends' support and companion but it is just hard for me to express myself. I also gives other a sense of independence - whereby I can perform and accomplish things on my own but sometimes I also needs help, it is just that my mouth is so tough that the words just don't come out of it... I might also gives others that everything I say is right but I can also accept others doing method...

All these 'bad' qualities of mine resulted in the condition that I am in now. Alone and neglected which I hoped that it would involve me or even an invitation but who do I think I am?!!!! I am actually a nobody!!!! Just a person who thinks that she knows everything but in actual fact she knows nothing!!!!

If the thing is decided, I could not do anything much but to go with it and work hard on my own and search it on my own. On deeper thoughts, if I was in the thing, I might not be able to contribute much and cause more trouble or obstruct them from going further... So, for now, I should do what I should do and finish all my tasks that are waiting for me to do....I will think the thing later....

I will walk my path my own way!!!

After i told myself to go for it or to charge, my inner self problem starts again - indecisiveness. How can a person can be so indecisive. This bad quality of mine make me so miserable and down most of the time. I have no mood in doing anything and the work keeps piling up. I wanted to steady myself but the one inside me make me so uncertain and so tired.... really longing for a simple life with my family members though I have to do all the house chores...

I went for my first oncall yesterday. Quite a peaceful day in the A&E so have a nice day but ended up being given advices by one of the doctor in charge but I am really glad he told me that so that I can set my goal clearer... Today is another day which I woke up very early in the morning to go for round and after that I went back to my room to study. Only a little of things got into my brain and the rest obstructed by the anxiety in me... Then went to the clinic, have a nice experience there although it is really packed with students but I did gain something...

Now back in my room, wanna get some entertainment to make me laugh so that I can start to read and absorb the facts better and happier... Wish me luck!!!