Lonely and neglected are my feelings now.... WHY???
Probably it is due to my personality, character and attitude. I am too cool to the ones around me and too serious about things thus was not able to understand or continue others' sense of humour/jokes. I give others a feeling of coolness in me and make others feel like I am a person that I am difficult to get along with. But, inside me, part of it is like that because I have difficulty in asking people for help or trouble other people. On the other hand, I am just like any other youngster who also longs for friends' support and companion but it is just hard for me to express myself. I also gives other a sense of independence - whereby I can perform and accomplish things on my own but sometimes I also needs help, it is just that my mouth is so tough that the words just don't come out of it... I might also gives others that everything I say is right but I can also accept others doing method...

All these 'bad' qualities of mine resulted in the condition that I am in now. Alone and neglected which I hoped that it would involve me or even an invitation but who do I think I am?!!!! I am actually a nobody!!!! Just a person who thinks that she knows everything but in actual fact she knows nothing!!!!

If the thing is decided, I could not do anything much but to go with it and work hard on my own and search it on my own. On deeper thoughts, if I was in the thing, I might not be able to contribute much and cause more trouble or obstruct them from going further... So, for now, I should do what I should do and finish all my tasks that are waiting for me to do....I will think the thing later....

I will walk my path my own way!!!